You.

I've been thinking of you a lot, this morning,

To fight and win your love, or to give up forever.

Well, just to let you know, of what I feel,

You were in my prayers, you were in my dreams.

I've been thinking of you a lot, this morning,

For the seven hundred thousandth time again,

Well, just to let you know the state of what I am,

You're in my thought since I woke up at 4am.

Half of my heart used to think that I loved you,

Now the other half thinks you're the one.

But half of the love is all on me,

And the other half is yours, not returning.

Now how will I win the other half of this love?

When you're so pretty, when you're so smart?

Can't I even make you smile, make you happy?

Who the hell do I think I am?

Cruel it is when you stole my heart and not returning it back to me,

Cruel it is when someone else but me stole yours.

Cruel it is when my prayer to have you is not answered,

Cruel it is when I have to see you swoon over someone else.

Well, just to let you know the way of things right now,

I'm heartbroken, again, this morning.

Confidential Rantings Made Public

• My guitar skills are getting rusty. I feel the urge to practice a few songs, but Football Manager 2011 is stealing my wake up time :B
• I wish I have friends whom I can have quality chat sessions with during dinner/in the car/etc. joking about stupid stuffs, doing silly things yet capable of having deep meaningful philosophical conversations instead of some gay gossips, sissy talks and nonsensical bitchy rantings. But for the time being, just appreciate with whom you're around with.
• I once had a girlfriend who I assume was fed with too much novel jiwang, was too clingy, super jealous, a kuat merajuk type and seems to demand too much attention that it can literally suck the life out of you. Simply put, she's crazy. So I broke up with her, of course, and it was like what, four years ago? And so when I saw her name in my facebook friend request, I thought she has changed into a proper person, and I approved her request. It was a mistake, she hasn't changed one bit. Her regular sappy corny statuses is enough to motivate me to hide her statuses in my newsfeed, and if ever she tries to annoy the hell out of me at fb chat again, I'm gonna have to remove her from my facebook for good. So guys, if you ever had a crazy ex girlfriend, NEVER EVER add her into your facebook/etc. cos it's not exactly the smartest thing to do.
• I fell off my bike about a week ago, got a nasty cut on my right knee. I was walking like a cripple for the past week and removing the plaster off the cut simply scared the shyte out of me. So it took me one week before I managed to find the courage to remove the plaster. And now I have some manly scar I can talk about while talking with the ladies ;P
• You know what's the scariest thing in the world? That moment when you take off that plaster off your wound. That, and being surrounded by sharks at sea, and you don't know how to swim. But removing the plaster thing is number one. :B
• I wish the creator of Football Manager football simulation game can create a game called Financial Manager. I bet I'll ace in my exams easily.
• Sex, drugs, nutella and rock n roll. Life is not complete without either one of those.
• Pete Teo is one of those rare Malaysian celebrities worth following on twitter. You learn a lot from him! I do!
• Caroline Wozniacki is a hot tennis chick. Go check her out!
• Piers Morgan is making waves on twitter and TV watching people around the world. I bet the only good thing on CNN is Piers Morgan Tonight.
• There's a 13th horoscope. I can't recall the name, but even if the new horoscope exists, I'm still a Piscean. The coolest horoscope ever!

52 Things to do in 2011

A friend of mine, at the beginning of last year created a list of 52 things he aimed to do in 2010. Theoretically, getting one item done per week every year.

They ranged from stuff such as "not shaving for a month" and "disable facebook account for an entire month" to things like "sign up to be an organ donor" and "participate in a walkathon or some kind of running event".

To those who have been following my blog and actually read it, you might have come across some posts about my own to-do list, which was a huge failure since the very idea of me interrupting the quality semester break period is not really a smart thing to do. That, and of course, the issues I have with discipline, especially during semester breaks.

This time though, I will not force myself to do everything in the list. And I don't even care if I fail to do half of them. Cos unlike the previous list, completing this one will not turn me into a proper adult. And I'm experimenting on some reverse psychology theory cos perhaps I might do better if I don't force myself too hard. :D

The list below is part stolen from my macha's blog post, Mr. Shan Vellu. And I changed them a little, of course.

1. Read 12 different books.
2. Go on a solo trip to anywhere.
3. Hitch-hike a ride.
4. Buy something from 7-Eleven every hour for 24 hours.
5. Write 12 songs.
6. Use a fire extinguisher.
7. Cook someone a proper meal.
8. Chat up one stranger each day for one week. (Bonus points if I can get their numbers).
9. Drive around early in the morning and catch the sunrise at Kuala Perlis.
10. Be mute for 24 hours.
11. Sing karaoke.
12. Beat 10 different people at chess.
13. Donate blood.
14. Go vegetarian for one week.
15. Cycle to C-Mart, buy a few stuff, and cycle back to Taman Sri Wang.
16. Not swear for 24 hours.
17. Read 12 finance magazines over the year.
18. Eat different types of dish for lunch and dinner for a week.
19. Go bald.
20. Watch a play/theater.
21. Dance in the middle of the road when the traffic lights turn red.
22. Get all A's, or a mix of A's and A- for my exams.
23. Speak proper, SPM A-1 level Bahasa Melayu for five days straight.
24. Buy something completely in coins.
25. Offer to buy a stranger a drink.
26. Don't shave for a month.
27. Not eat for an entire day.
28. Play paintball.
29. Turn off my phone for an entire week.
30. Disable my facebook account for an entire month.
31. Beat a cat at a staring contest.
32. Kiss a girl.
33. Watch a football game at a stadium.
34. Not sleep for 48 hours.
35. Send 10 random people personalised "Just Because" cards.
36. Send a message in a bottle.
37. Drive around in a pair of boxers.
38. Be on TV/newspaper/magazine.
39. Shake hand with the UiTM Perlis director.
40. Go camping.
41. Help an old/blind lady/man cross the road-ish.
42. Meet a famous person.
43. Break the UiTM law.
44. Give a street performer money.
45. Give wrong directions to people.
46. Invent a rumour.
47. Get someone to believe a made up fact.
48. Just use my left hand for a day.
49. Make some money in the stock market.
50. Go street performing for money.
51. Play Football Manager for 36 hours solid.
52. Buy a new phone.

I guess it's not too late to wish everyone a happy new year, since the Chinese one is a week plus away. So... Happy New Year folks!

The Year That Was - 2010

In keeping up with the tradition of this blog - which is to write a post to recap the stuffs that made the year memorable, as the final post of the year - I am now fending off my unnatural urge to sleep in spite of not being in the mood to blog at all.

**For future reference Zaid of the future, your sleeping pattern was disturbed and you should've been sleeping while you were posting this stuff at 9.15pm :| **

Since I'm kinda sleepy and there's not much time left until 2010 passes by under our pretty noses, I have elected to write a gung ho style post, highlighting my (somewhat deviated) journey to becoming a proper adult in 2010 into one single post. Unlike the previous years, I believe this one will be rather short. But who cares. Here goes :

January :

Malaysian politics is very colourful, it's blinding. And one of the reason was the hullabaloo surrounding the dispute whether the word Allah can be used in a Christian publication in Malaysia. I was engaged in a cyber war with a senior from my uni regarding the issue, and I was surprised as to how smart I can be in my reasoning skills. Refer to my January 8th post and marvel at my smarty-panty-ness in the dialog attached if you have a lot of time to kill.

I was also in the middle of a cross road back then, when I was contemplating to either continue

my studies in the UK, or continue my degree locally and grad one semester ear

lier. I chose the later, and I'm not regretting the decision. Though the only way now if I am to want to continue abroad is to study my ass off (again), get a stellar CGPA and do my masters there (and getting a scholarship). Masters? Yea rite...

February :

World peace is hard to achieve when there's a feeling of dislike towards one another, mutually or otherwise. And I have my own list of people I don't like in my life (aka enemies), and one of them made a return to the place he was not meant to be, where I thought I had seen the last of him a couple of months before. Need a clue? He's the closest resemblance to a swine in the whole batch physically and such an attention whore.

I had a very cool lecturer who taught me presentation skills that semester, Mr Azahari. He looks like Ramli Sarip and has a good sense of humour. I like him, I wanna be like him.

February was also the month where I genuinely fell in love with a girl while taking the train

home. She's from Kemunting.

And I discovered the joy of wintermelon juice :B

March :

I was planning to celebrate my 22nd birthday at The Curve, enjoying the tunes from Kings of Convenience as they toured to our country during my birthday. It was not to be as I had to join a "Personal Development" trip (it's a course work at the same time), and Encik Roslan Ariff will forever be remembered for taking KOC away from me.

I also discovered that Nasi Putih Daging Merah tastes like feet.

April :

Miss Syikin who taught me Corporate Finance sent me a facebook PM telling me to actually start studying during the final weeks leading up to the final exams. Kinda disturbing.

May :

I was experimenting whether discipline is part of my trait or I'm a complete asshole by dragging myself into a mess called a to-do list, which is inspired by Mike Gayle's book of the same title. Which I haven't finished reading yet. Until now. And about the list itself, it has 79 items in it, created to keep me occupied with stuffs that supposedly make me a functioning adult and to spend time better during the May/June semester break. And in spite of bringing the list forward to the Nov/Dec holiday plan, I still haven't gotten half of them settled with yet. Aih~

June :

The World Cup was boring. The Vuvuzela single handedly destroyed the World Cup with the nonsensical monotonous din coming out from the stuff for the entire 90 minutes of each game (barring the Diego Forlan goal, Uruguay vs South Africa), and the entirety of the tournament. I wasn't even bothered to watch it on TV because of the noise. The worst World Cup I've ever seen in my 22 years of living. And Italy sucked.

Then there was this problem where the UiTM server went nuts and I (and thousands

other)had to wait till the next day after the supposed date where the final exam results should came out cos of technical problems.

July :

Discovered that Nazrullah from Marketing is a super hero as he single handedly drove the legendary white Nissan (or was it a Ford?) van around Kedah/parts of Penang (air panas, air terjun, shopping mall) from Friday noon to morning the next day. The van had 15 passengers (I think) and popular belief suggests that Naz stayed up for 22 hours straight!

August :

Not much that I can remember.

September :

Got a car. Hyundai i10. Baby Milmo arrived! :D

October :

Baby Milmo's first scratch.

Second solo trip to Langkawi. And if not for Wan, the trip would've been a one day retreat to paradise. Instead, I had to spend a night there as we missed the ferry, and a few hundred ringgit more.

November :

Got a first hand experience of being a flood victim. No clean water supply forced me into taking drastic actions such as skipping baths and being stinky. And trying not to poo took it's toll too. And it all hapened during the final exams.

Wikileaks has become a diplomatic land mine as sensitive issues such as security and Anwar Ibrahim being gay are leaked.

ISP Liability Act suddenly ruffles my ass feathers and many others as the parliament might discuss it and pass the act, and rob us of internet freedom we've been enjoying for the past 10 years.

December :

Got into a fight with some Indon people on Twitter after the 3-0 drubbing of Indon by Malaysia in the first leg of the AFF Suzuki Cup and at the same time, discovered the joy of using twitter. It was fun when the most the Indon die hards could do was sitting in front of their PCs threatening to kill me with their self-consoling retorts.

Malaysia won the cup and Khairul Fahmi is now the craze of a few thousand shameless Malaysian females.

Alright now, gotta sleep. :B

Yes Guys, I Listen to Japanese Music.

It seems that Football Manager 2011, like it's predecessor, Football Manager 2010 is not made for my laptop. The same problem persists, even after I installed the original Windows 7, which led me to think that I either have to bring it to the shops and ask for what exactly is the matter (and costs me money to get it fixed) or give up hopes altogether and save money; simply play the first season and delete the file and imagine what could've been if I can get a few more seasons going which the laptop isn't giving, which is of course, depressing.

And so I decided to take a break from being a football manager and have a serious online session. It has been a long time now since my last serious internet session. Ever since I got home for the semester break, the longest I went online was 4 hours, and that was an odd one out since I only got online like an average less than an hour/day, everyday since I got home cos of my Football Manager addiction :B

That's when I opened up the WMP, set it at random and suddenly it played a "Brilliant Green" song. It was bliss.

Introducing The Brilliant Green (pix from http://columbiajpmusic.blogspot.com/2009/02/blog-post_23.html)

For those who are alien to Japanese pop culture and music, or even if you are a fan (cos there's a good chance you have no idea of who they are, they're like a Jpop/Jrock best kept secret, I think), the band consists of 3 members. 2 guys and a girl. I can't remember the name of the guys but the female lead's name is Tomoko Kawase, one of those serious celebrity crushes I had when I was still an innocent school going kid. She's like the ultimate cute rock chick out there. Every aspiring rock chick out there should shun away from Avril Lavigne or Miley Sirus(sp?) cos Tommy (Tomoko Kawase) sets the standard right. Like seriously.

Moar Buriguri goodness!!! (Pix from http://ca.c.yimg.jp/music/20080808_191306/img.music.yahoo.co.jp/images/magazine/spt/20070815_001/spt_gall_art_004.jpg)

Tomoko Kawase is love... (from http://pv-downloads.blogspot.com/2010/11/brilliant-green-blue-daisy.html)

And since I just rediscovered the band after a long while, she has now returned to my personal list of babes I seriously consider wanting to get married with (which is a top 5 list that changes periodically according to time and taste, and Megan McCormick of Glob Trekker fame and Lisa Surihani are currently battling out for top spot :B ) after a long hiatus.

Anyways, it has been a long time now since I last seriously listen to Japanese songs. And I welcome this return to "Japanese-ness". The band was my favourite during my high school days. That and Radiohead. And with that it brings nostalgia. It seems that I have gone a long way now, music-taste wise, in that the laptop and the CDs in my car have been playing post-rock, alternative, down tempo electronics, alt folk, experimental pop, prog, blues, classical and jazz (how musically eclectic I am surprisingly, though there's still no room for hip hop(barring Asher Roth. Hey look, a bracket in a bracket!) and trashy MTV fodders) over the years since then.

I remember that this is one of the earliest bands which music I downloaded online (remember 2003/04, the days when Streamyx was awesome? And the now defunct Kazaa?). I used to have all of their albums in my music library and I used to scour the music stores to see whether they sell The Brilliant Green CDs, which if they did I would've already owned legal physical copies of them, which is of course not the case. Some of their songs are in my lifetime favourites. I remember listening to them, enjoying good honest rock n' roll before I got myself exposed to complex experimental music of Radiohead, Sigur Ros and the others over the years which is not entirely a bad thing. I remember listening to them every time I went online after school back then. I remember listening to some of their songs over and over again for weeks and never got tired of it.

I miss 2003, it was all perfect back then.

P/s : Apparently, I had missed out on Buriguri when they released an album in 2007. And they had just released another one this year! This is one of the new songs from Buriguri (The Brilliant Green). Enjoy ;D

Terkandas Di Pulau Langkawi dan Lesen Kereta Mati.

After checking my old blog posts, I realised I didn't blog anything about my last year's trip to Langkawi. But at least that time I still had the camera phone with me, so I just posted some pictures from that trip into my facebook.

This time though, thanks to the penchuri henfon lakhanat itu, I have no pictures as evidence to claim I was there. Yeap, I was in Langkawi again after almost exactly one year! You guys believe me right? :B

So I went there for what was initially a one day trip. It went wrong later on though cos a friend, Wan a.k.a. Matburn went beach happy at the Cenang Beach. So I wasn't there solo, though I took the ferry to and fro alone (Matburn took the earlier ferry and supposed to return today evening).

Wan was kind enough to offer me a ride to the jetty in Langkawi and we arranged for him to pick me up at 6pm. As I mentioned earlier, the Cenang Beach was sucking him away from the car as he went beach happy and I was left waiting for him for 40 minutes. To his eternal credit, he did came - 40 minutes late - and we were rushing like mad cows to the jetty trying to catch the 7pm ferry (a.k.a. the last ferry) though it was pretty obvious by the time we reached Pekan Kuah that the last ferry had just left. Indeed, we were 15 minutes late and I was left with no other choice other than to spend the night there, and extra RM100. This time, Langkawi has sucked my wallet dry :B

Oh yes, while waiting for Wan to pick me up to the jetty, I was contemplating whether or not to flash this stuff up. I didn't have enough cash for the cab to begin with, so that's why Wan offered me a ride to the jetty in the first place.

I prepared this earlier before the trip cos I know I'll be short on cash later on.

And that cool dye-shirt thing, yeah, it took away a lot from the wallet.

Some things I learnt from the trip to Langkawi.

1. Get to know the people around your seat while on the ferry, or while waiting for the ferry at the waiting terminal. The chances are, that person might be a local, or have links with the locals and they have people waiting for them at the other jetty. They might offer you a ride anywhere on the island, and will happily decline any money you offer them as a sign of gratitude. Even if they're not locals (ie; tourists), they might tag you along to join them to wherever they're going, cos the more people there are, the cheaper the cab fare per head is!This is the Rasta shop at Pantai Cenang where I got my super cool dye-top.
2. Getting a full body massage is awesome. Though last Saturday I learnt that my right side is more ticklish than the left while I was doing my session. But in the end I feel light like the angels on their way to the heavens like wahlahweyyy, so I don't really bother bout that. Just don't try and tickle my right side.
3. Don't trust the shop that says that they're "OPEN (for) 24 HOURS". I got a first hand experience of being a victim. You see, I was hungry and I was looking for a shop that sells snacks and drinks given that the cafes are all closed during then. So I saw a shop that has the "OPEN 24 HOURS" put up outside and bought a pack of cashew nuts and a can of fruit juice around 4.30am at a said convenient store before I head back to my room and sleep. I woke up around 8.30am and I headed out to buy a toothbrush and her partner in crime, the tooth paste only to find that the said shop was closed. And so I walked almost the entire stretch of Pantai Chenang (80% or so) only to give up later on cos I was hungry and felt that the chewing gums in my pocket was enough to get me out of murder at least for that day. I headed back to my room later to watch TV.
4. Chewing gum is the almost perfect substitute for toothbrush and toothpaste. Almost.
5. You don't have to bring too many shirts on your holiday. I think 1 shirt for a 1 day trip is good enough. That said, 2 shirts for 2 days. Cos most people I met didn't notice the stinkiness anyway. But remember to bring that thing you wear while bathing at the beach. Cos going to a beach holiday without bringing any of those is weird. You're not going to, in any way, not dip your toes into the the water right? Cos if you do, the other parts of your body will naturally follow suit. Trust me on that one.
6. Those people who walked on the beach around 2am are mostly friendly people. Usually these bunch are the nice bunch who you can talk to almost anything. You can drink hot tea with them, play guitars and sing in a circle with other nice strangers. You can even flirt like the hell out with them sexy ladies (:P) and talk them to your place. These people are usually foreign and local students from local unis (Lim Kok Weng(sp?), Taylors, UKM, etc.) or "SH" (I'm not gonna explain the term) foreigners, especially those Mat Sallehs at the bar. Again, these nice people are easy to find at the beach around 2-4am...
7. Around the same time, you can find scantily clad bohsias too, without the Mat Rempits. And come to think of it, Langkawi seems to be a Mat Rempit free island. Langkawi rocks!
8. There's something about people from Bangladesh or India (not the Malaysian Indian ones) whom I met/saw during my last trip and the trip before the last one to Langkawi. You see, there's a certain uneasy feeling about whenever you are walking at the beach, there's a fat chance you'll see a pair/group of Indian/Bangladeshi guys walking side by side like gay buddies or something. You know, they'll like giggle or smile in a gaylord kinda way, not the natural I'm straight kinda way. It's hard to say it when you're not there, but that's just the way it is! I'm not saying that a guy can't walk with another guy holding hands under the moonlight at the breezy beach without actually staring at the hot chicks around them at 2,3am. Oh wait, I beg to differ on that one...
9. I'm not the best person in the world to talk about laksa, and I don't even know the difference between laksa Penang and laksa Kedah. Though I might have a vague idea of how laksa Sarawak looks like. But one thing I know is that there's a restaurant in Kuala Perlis that serves one hell of a laksa, and I'm saying this in a positive light, and it's called Laksa Kak Su. Apparently their laksa is so good, they even have a facebook fan page here! It's hard to describe the laksa using words, but the kuah is rich in texture and taste. And add that with a tinge of lemon juice and cili padi. It's the closest to laksa heaven you'll ever get in Perlis. Simply put, it's the laksa of champions.
10. Bangladeshis or where ever the people at the car wash are from are very nice and polite people. I was at a car wash in Kangar yesterday while on my way back to Arau from Kuala Perlis and instead of feeling uncomfortable having a pep talk with them while having my car cleaned, I felt kinda... well, okay! Though I sensed a pattern after having the first two of them started off by asking whether I have an amoy or not in two separate conversations. Like seriously, both of them used the word amoy!!! And yeah, I'm single bebeh! xD
11. I just realised I've been driving illegally on the road for the past 8 days. :B

This is Pantai Cenang.

Now that I'm back in Arau, gotta get myself ready for the finals. Aih~

Pak Din and Andrey Arshavin Once Said That the Bad Drivers Are the...

Due to the (admittedly) insensitive nature of the post under the same title, and the fact that my blog has become surprisingly popular and reaches far and wide, including the intended target of my post, the original post has been removed after 12 hours in cyberspace, to avoid further conflict and as a demonstration of peace.

To the person concerned, thank you very much for the ice-cream, I love Cornetto, and if possible, I would love to make it up to you by asking you out to dinner. No, I do not want the money for the car scratch, because my dad said it was ok. The only reason I went high and mighty in my ranting was that I was in the mood for angry upsetness towards a kampung midget I am currently having issues with. And that person is not you.

Gambar raya. Maaf zahir dan batin.

Again, I'm sorry. I don't think words are enough to express how I feel, so I dedicate this video to express how sorry I am.

Btw, I still think Pak Din and Andrey Arshavin were right. (To avoid controversy, not all) female drivers are bad drivers. Cheers! :D

*The original post is now being kept as a draft for future reference. Probably when I am old and only have memories left to resort to keep me smiling. The post is retrievable upon request, though to avoid further conflict, only those I trust will be granted permission.

**Apparently, 1/3 of people are excited about the fact that today is 10/10/10. Our national space tourist weds today. I didn't know being a space tourist can give you celebrity status.

To Ikha.

The first time I saw you this semester I knew that I love you.

I remember the time when I was walking past you countless times at Mushroom, and the time when I saw you and your friends going to class while I was hanging out with my friends at the foyer at HEP.

And also that time when I was waiting for a friend at Bank Islam during some carnival I fail to recall, only to tell her that I wanna wait there longer at the bank just to catch a further glimpse of your face (you were behind her at the ATM queue), and of course at Oren while I was having lunch with my friends. And I remember that whenever I looked into your eyes during those times, you would offer me a smile that melts me deep inside. And I'd happily smile back in return, grateful to have you acknowledging my existence. That few seconds of contact for me was magic.

That's when I realised that this is it, you're the one for me.

Without doubt, because of your smile, I had a huge crush on you babe. THAT huge! Which every time I saw you, I felt the urge to go straight to you and ask for your number, and your name, so that I can text you and later tell you of my feeling towards you which I can't help concealing anymore. But somehow, each and every time that chance of seeing you arose, cowardice failed me. But really, I was desperate to at least know your name, which had been a question lingering over my head for over a month.

That was about to change. The day I saw you with your friend Riri that Wednesday evening at the Ramadan bazaar at Mushroom gave me the drive to go that extra mile. You wore a pink top that day babe, and your smile was as sweet as the jagung madu :P

I decided to make contact with you no matter what, and so I searched for you on facebook. I remember Riri and so I was scouring through her friends list from A to Z, searching for that smile that captivated me, that lovely face that has been etching deep in my mind for over a month. They say perseverance is key to success, perhaps that is indeed the case. And finally that Wednesday evening, I knew the name of the person I have fallen for.

Zulaikha Zainal Abidin, this is my story...

4 Years Ago.

Almost exactly 4 years ago, I was in KMK.
I was lost in the midst of a grueling 8-hour lectures, labs and tutorials, the alienating feeling of Kelantanism, the amazing combo of ikan jeket and air paip for lunch and dinner, and the miserable lab reports that seemed to be a never ending horror. And as of July 5th that year, mid sem exam did not even fear half of my butt chic.
And I was lamenting the need for the library to block Friendster (remember that thing?).
There was a chick from life science, she's cute but she had a small line of mustache on her lips. Or something like that.

Almost exactly 4 years ago, it was a World Cup year.
Kaka was still an AC Milan player, and Dida was the undisputed number 1. Made-in-Inter Calciopoli was being investigated by the court, and clubs fear of being penalized.
Italy started their World Cup campaign in the usual slow manner, and gathered momentum as the the tournament progressed. They played extremely well, and defensively Italian - Buffon only conceded 2 goals; an own-goal and a penalty - and Canavarro was Baresi and Gattuso was a beast.

4 years on, I'm about to return to my Arau campus.
Lectures, lab and tutorials won't steal away 8 hours of my life every weekdays there, the number of Kelantanese people I have to deal with is enough to make them feel that THEY are the aliens, ikan jaket and air paip is now consigned to the far-away history of my personal dark age, and I have no lab reports to deal with whatsoever. Hell, I don't even have lab in the first place. Though finance assignments might affect my frail health again come next semester.
Friendster is now ancient history as Facebook and last.fm make headways, and I have my own personal broadband that blocks nothing on the web whatsoever.
There's a girl, she was in a different class last semester. She looks decent and seamlessly stole my heart. I still can't get her out of my system.

4 years on, it's another World Cup year.
Kaka is now a Real Madrid player, and Dida returns to Brazil. Inter the cheater capitalized on the Calciopoli that wrongfully affected her other rivals, and has now built a strong team. Indeed, because of Calciopoli.
Italy started their World Cup campaign slowly, only to fail to gather momentum and stumbled at the first hurdle. Defensively Italy were not being Italian, Buffon was injured - Machetti conceded 4 of the 5 goals mostly from set pieces - Canavarro played like a retired star on an exhibition match, and Gattuso only had his facial hair to show that he is still a beast. Inter Milan failed to provide a single Italian of note who can contribute greatly for the national team. Apart from Calciopoli, Inter's lack of Italian players in the first team did Italy a disservice.


Posts from 4 years ago...

http://nosurprises2.blogspot.com/2006/06/world-cup.html
http://nosurprises2.blogspot.com/2006/07/5-minutes.html
http://nosurprises2.blogspot.com/2006/07/shoot-me.html
http://nosurprises2.blogspot.com/2006/07/untitled-1.html

Ladies and Gentlemen, Enter The List!

"Realise that you've got a problem"

- Mike Gayle, The To-Do List

Dear all,

After four-and-a-half months of studying, lepaking, ogling at chicks, sleeping, facebooking till 3am, and went crazy trying to meet assignment deadlines and topping it all with a miserable run of final exams, I, Zaid Mohamad feels that I richly deserve a good 2 months break from anything related to studying the balance sheet, analyzing corporate finance and understanding research methodology. I'm planning to laze around the house and be completely useless.

At least, that was the plan.

But as I grow older and being 22, somehow I feel that I need to make myself more productive. In a sense that I should be doing stuffs that matters to myself. That can make my life better, even a tad bit. And that, by doing so I can actually pave my way through to becoming a proper adult, hopefully by 30. In a nutshell, I'm doing this so that I won't be putting my holidays to waste.

So now I have come to a conclusion that it's about time I joined the world of fully functioning adults - on a temporary basis at least - as of today I will be undertaking a 79-item To-Do List which I plan to have completed by July 5th (or so, till my semester break ends). So that I can in the future look back at this semester break as being the more/most productive than the past few semester breaks before it and make my transition to being a proper adult without suffering from much shocks and difficulties.

And the reason I tagged you lot to this blog post is to give me the inspiration and motivation to succeed, knowing full well that should I fail in completing a minimum of 50 tasks, I will look like a complete and utter buffoon in front of you all and will afford you the right to mock me to within an inch of my life.

See you all soon.

Zaid Mohamad.

The Semester Break Holiday To-Do List!

1. Clear the desk so that you can actually put your laptop on it.
2. Arrange my bags, books and stuffs on my desks and shelves in my room into something resembling an order.
3. Restring both guitars...
4. And relearn how to play them (and break the 'tone-deaf' ceiling).
5. Talk to those people you haven't spoken to in YM/Facebook.
6. Clear my music library from broken-files songs/ songs that I accidently downloaded twice.
7. Learn basic Italian.
8. Download Google Earth...
9. And Windows Live Messenger.
10. Get rid of useless files and downloads from the hard drive.
11. Expand vocabulary (one word per day).
12. Arrange my academic/co-curricular certificates into chronological order and put it in a file.
13. Work out how to make function the laptop camera and mic with Windows 7.
14. Do something with Winamp music library artist organisation.
15. Learn to cook proper food.
16. Keep hair as long as possible.
17. Come up with a 5 year plan.
18. Learn to identify plants/vegetables/shrubs.
19. Go jogging.
20. Find more news on scholarships.
21. Learn how to use Adobe Photoshop.
22. Plan a final meet up with the DIIA kids before or after convo.
23. Remove my name from all emails newsletters subsription services that I unwisely signed up for.
24. Keep up with current affairs.
25. Create a new email with a proper name for official use.
26. Establish yourself at the last.fm forums.
27. Brush up your fardhu-ain knowledge.
28. Delete useless emails/junkmails and keep them organised.
29. Make it a habit to check your email everyday.
30. Learn to appreciate Metallica.
31. Go to mosque for regular daily prayer (that is, barring the Friday prayer).
32. Get a proper IQ test...
33. And personality test...
34. And career test.
35. Try to appreciate Pulp Fiction.
36. Give Harry Potter a chance.
37. Watch American Beauty...
38. And Juno...
39. And In Bruges...
40. And Leon...
41. And Pineapple Express...
42. And Rec...
43. And 500 Days of Summer...
44. And This is England...
45. And Role Models.
46. Learn to curb my tendencies in using "..." in writing messages...
47. And learn how to write a proper sentence.
48. Give PJ Harvey a second chance...
49. And Tori Amos' Boys for Pele...
50. And Pizicatto 5.
51. Try to understand George Carlin's jokes.
52. Learn a dance move just in case I might need them in the future.
53. Find out how the capital market responds to different economic indicators.
54. Try to like reading BNM/Bursa Malaysia/Economic sites.
55. Decide if you're really ever going to watch Bangkok Dangerous...
56. And Initial-D...
57. And Inkheart...
58. And Fight Club.
59. Know about the solar system.
60. Know who's who in the government.
61. Find missing CDS like Oasis' What's the Story [Morning Glory?]...
62. And Audioslave...
63. And The Darkness' Permission to Land.
64. Catch up with Bonana...
65. And Tun Syakirin...
66. And Hafiz...
67. And Syarku+Mimi+Anas.
68. Ask Faiq to save me a pair of Arau Open T-Shirt+goody bag.
69. Investigate what exactly does a remisier/dealer/broker do.
70. Play chess more.
71. Relearn chess moves and strategies.
72. Stop eating McDonald's. Or have once/month max.
73. Get a girlfriend so that she can give your life purpose and make you more organised.
    
74. Learn how to impress girls.
75. Have a indie-music moment.
76. Join the library.
77. Sample every nasi kandar restaurants in town.
78. Register myself with the Suruhanjaya Pilihan Raya so that I'll be eligible to cast some undi-rosak in the next election.
79. Watch every World Cup game without fail.
    

There's a Game On Facebook Called Aquarium or Something...

So many fish there in the sea;
You wanted him,
He wanted me...

And I wanted you...


Altered a little from the song Automatic Stop - The Strokes


I'm not feeling entirely down at the moment. Despite tons of assignments, read - FMI (due next week), CF (presentation on April Fool's Day, handover of assignment on the next Monday by 12), QMT test on Sunday, RM the next day and RM super assignment before the finals - I'm not feeling bad, albeit a little bit.

I think that in the future, our grand kids will uncover that tests and assignments are the ones that contribute to global warming. Imagine all those trees being murdered so that lousy novels like the twilight saga get printed out and college students all around the world got their live span reduced while bravely battling out in exam halls and meeting deadlines...

Haih, time to get serious with work...


You'd be so perfect with me but you just can't see...

I Want To Go To You

Zaid of the future, at this point you were writing this post using microsoft word on a UiTM bus, on your way back from the presumably horrible Personal Development trip at Morib (which proved to be mildly otherwise, thank God), nursing rather painful shots on your right arm from paintball quietly at the back of the bus. Listening to Sufjan Stevens after watching a Russell Peters rerun and waiting desperately for your facebook home to finish uploading its content with about a hundred updates waiting to be responded at, due to the ridiculously poor internet speed that could have challenged the legendary dial-up, and win in straight sets. And in the safe knowledge that you have just missed Kings of Convenience live at The Curve and one of the many girls you were having a terrible crush this year (and somehow she knows it) has been avoiding any contact with you–eye, conversation, etc -

The personality test I took while I was at Morib says that I’m a “lover”. She happens to be in the same group. I think I fall in love rather easily. Is this some kind of mental illness I'm having for falling in too easily??? Coz I think, I love her... Help me. Please?

A down-sized photo art of "I Want To Go To You" by Seanfl. My top 3 deviantart favs.

Happy Belated Birthday (again) to My Blog

Four years ago, on 26th February, I posted my very first proper blog post using blogspot. A solid 2 years after my experiment post on the site.


The blog's name was initially called "el-bloggo". And it changed quite often from "blogogo" to "blegh" and a few variations in between them until I chose to settle down with the name No Surprises 2 (due to other people already taken the name No Surprises).

The layout back then was some basic blogspot template which I used for about 2 years (the basic black template one) and it used to have the game pacman and a few youtube vids of my favourite songs in it on the right hand corner of the blog. And oh! The header (which bore the words "no alarms and no surprises and a cropped picture of my eyes) was half-filled, and it remained for a long time until I moved out from matrics.

While reading the old posts, I realised my transformation from being a ditzy teenager who can't even spell and often looked at the world as if they are out to get me to someone whose more mature (I think) and appreciates the small joys the world has got to offer.

Over the years, I have vent my frustrations, rambled about the injustice of the world like no one else's business, talked about the various chics I have fallen for, my experience with my exfgs, the places I've been and the many (unfair) things those places(and the system) did to me and my state of mind. This is also the place I talked about football, economics, politics, my ambitions, the things I saw, the crazy things I did and the targets I set (like the cliched new year's resolution).

This, and many more over the past 4 years have seen No Surprises 2 played the role of a close ally to me - or even a friend who listens to even the smallest of matters - accompanying me in my journey to adulthood. And I hope it continues until... well, when I have grandkids?

HAPPY 4TH ANNIVERSARY NO SURPRISES2!!!!!

Just to Let You Know

I'm a fan of the tv series Blackadder. So it is only natural of me to scour the realm of the cyberspace - ruled only by the FBI, google, and of course in some countries like our ungrateful neighbour of the south Singapore; the media censorship agency (haha!) - to find Blackadder related stuff. And I stumbled upon this gem which I should've had the wisdom to be amazed by its very existence three years ago while I was still not affected by a mild bipolar disorder born out of continuous mental agony suffered in the el-nino stricken state of Perlis (on which its very existence challenges the logic). But it's better late than never, no?

It's the holidays. It's mid term break actually. So in keeping with the tradition to keep the students busy during their mid term breaks; assignments of various forms and shapes are brought home by us students (I set aside 2 bags, one exclusively for homeworks) with the intention to get it done, or half done, given by lecturers eager to stamp their mark in the annals of "how-to-destroy-those-kids-holidays". That said, I better off doing my assignments which is still not even 10% done (at the time of press). Oh, and I have 23 credit hours for this semester.

If you have been stalking my fb (or I tagged you in my fb note) in the past 5 days, you will know that I'm in love with a girl from Kemunting (excuse the cheesyness), had a great chat with her and I made the elementary mistake of forgetting to ask for her number. But I've devised a master plan. I remembered that she said she is directing a screenplay due to be staged in March. So she must be a member of the Drama Club. And so, I shall sacrifice my Friday evening to find her, wherever she may be (most prolly at Dewan Baru)... I ride a bicycle to class, this should be easy!

A couple of weeks back I joined the guys from A class for a BBQ at Gua Kelam (it was my first visit - which given that I've been living in the tiny state of Perlis for 3 long years - a surprise) , and an evening retail therapy at Padang Besar. My only verdict is that, WE SHOULD DO THIS EVERY MONTH GUYS!!!


Went to kakak Syariza's wedding with Mimi and Sharku. I ate too much that day I felt my tummy bloating, waiting to get the organs inside to make their way out in a horror display of tummy explosion. What made it worse is that we didn't just go to the kenduri. We went to Pizza Hut at Kulim Mall only to be amazed at how those two can find space in their tummy for delicious looking spaghettis... Ok perhaps, they didn't eat as much as I did during the kenduri.


I'm contemplating in lodging a police report on those kids behind my house row who are firing those loud firecrackers on the ground that they contribute to sound pollution and possession of contraband.

The Girl From Kemunting

NOTE : It is best if you play this song while reading this post to invoke the romantic nature of this post. Whatever that means...


I had a great chat with a wonderful girl while on the way back home from Arau two nights ago.

It all started when I boarded the KTM train, with a no-seat-guaranteed written on its ticket. Which got me kinda confused at how things go at KTM. They can sell tickets to those returning to anywhere but Kedah/Penang a few weeks earlier and those returning to the said destinations can only buy the ticket on boarding day!? WTF??? Which guarantees a no-seat trip, and leg cramps - to Alor Setar at least.

But I was lucky to meet Jeha - an ACELS member during my time as president (kena mention ke??? xD) - who generously gave away her seat to me so that she can seat with her bf (eh?); after noticing I was standing like a tortured soul whose having leg cramps for about 1 hour, and staring at her like a possessed cayote desperate to get his arse sitting.

I would like to say thank you.

And so, I was seating at her place. Right next to a decent looking chick (score!), but she was sleeping, but she looks sooo cute while sleeping T.T... and so, I laid my boney arse into the surprisingly comfy chair, and somehow I woke her up from her sleep... like... alamak!

But somehow, after a few odd minutes, we chat... out of boredom of not being able to sleep and in her case - returning to sleep. And from then on I realised how pure and sincere this girl is, unlike most girls I see back in campus who are mostly posers who fancy the US version of mamak stall - starbucks - or any other Israel financiers and machine-made designer labels and act sif they're super hot. She is different and in fact, from how I see it, has a very strong personality, and she's fun to be with!

So she's a part 2 agro student from Kemunting. Her name is Mira and she's third in the family, and she lives with her young and sporting stepmom together with 7 other siblings. Her dad died last year, years after her mom's, but somehow I see that she got over it very well, as if she has got used to it. She's smart, she knows what she is talking about and she almost scored a dean's list last sem! Apart from the fact that she's kinda hot and single, I clearly think I've met my match. It was the best chat I've had in a while and the usually long hours in the train felt very short.

And I forgot to ask for her number :B



But I shall try! This could be one of those how-I-met -your-mother/romantic valentine's day story!
... and whenever I hear this song, I remember her.

Happy Chinese New Year!

To Stay or Not to Stay

Lately I've been contemplating whether it is worthwile if I am to go forward with my plan to further my studies elsewhere.

Three years back, I was hell bent on studying my ass off over the course of my diploma studies so that I can study abroad to such an extent where I set myself a Vision 07 - created while I was accompanying my dad for his meeting in Langkawi - and had not gone astray in my quest for overseas education, which is testament to my desire to do so. And so, I succeeded in getting a desirable score in my diploma, and I have the choice to embark on the journey knowing that I'm as good as anyone else who shares the same ambition as I do. And be with those friends and families whom I was envious of for them having the opportunity I don't have up until now.

But somehow, as time passes by, my desire to go that extra mile has gone away little by little. I just spoke to a friend this morning and she hit home that "grey-area" questions and doubts that have gotten into me for quite a time now.

Now for starters, I'm not an adventurous guy. And so I don't like to change things if things are going well. I am now doing my degree and things are sorted out perfectly already. I know what I should aim for at this moment and over the next few years of my studying. I have made (and still am making) friends, old and new and many lecturers know me. I have a cozy place to stay with nice housemates and (cute) neighbours and I cycle to class like some fucking environmentalist.

Secondly, I would have wasted another 6 months of my life crawling my way up the hill of academicia for a degree which is as good a degree I can get over here if I manage to repeat my feat during my diploma days. And that adds to another 6 months I wasted during my time doing matrix.

Thirdly, despite how many times I say I despise Arau, somehow the place has grown over me...

And so, I basically have everything laid out in front of me and I just have to follow the route and feel secure about myself. Which is the way I would like it to be. Secured.

But really, the opportunity of studying abroad doesn't come easily. With the diploma I'm having I can be convinced that I can reach that ambition I was fighting for for the past 3 years. And I'm not convinced of pulling the sort of result I got during then in my degree. And of course, the many useful and precious experience and the different people and culture which can only be obtained abroad.

I'm in a real dilemma.



p/s : sorry for tagging you guys, but i need your opinions... and i'm emoing like a cow on pms! sorry again...

The Year That Was - 2009

X-mas was 4 days ago (also the pagans celebrated the winter's solstice) and in 3 days time we're all set for a brand spanking new year! So, in between x-mas and the countdown party to the New Year's Day, some of us might take this time to reflect on the year that is about to pass - 2009.

Which is what I'm doing for this post.

Unlike the years past, this time I will give comments on whether the things I've gone through this year is a good thing or a bad thing. That is to say, it will be easier for me to judge whether this year is a good year or a bad year. And it seems that posting things into blogs and having a fb account kinda help in recalling the memories - oh, I didn't waste my time that bad it seems! So, here goes...


I made a new year's resolution. For almost 10 years since the day I realised that there are people who create targets for them to achieve in a short time span of 1 year, I (Zaid Mohamad) have been quite a fan of creating new year's resolution. I think the idea of making one shows how ambitious you are. You have a target to achieve, you have bad things in you that you want to change - that said, you realise your weakness(es) and that means you're in the right path to become a proper person. Yes!

But during the same 10 years I too realised that I rarely look at them, lest trying to do any of the things listed in it. So for the year 2009 I made this - complete with a hot chick in it and being a pc background regular for almost 2 months. So Zaid of the future, lets analyse this together shall we?

• Fitter, happier, more productive - I'm stil 53kg. My dad accuses me of worshiping talking skeletons due to my small arms and small frame making me the odd one out in a family of healthy happy eating people. I rarely carry weights or heavy stuffs and I didn't join any physical-based activities/sports. Except for golf. But I think that was last year. I'm still single and desperate. But I'm fairly happy with how things are going at the moment. I didn't get a job (or tried to get one) so I'm not productive. How I see it - bad
• Breakfast, vegies... - Like most people I know at UiTM Perlis, breakfast is as common to them as tree eating aliens. But at least I'm starting to open up to more types of vegies other than sayur kobis, kacang, tomatoes (which for the purpose to beef up this segment-is a fruit btw), carrots and mushrooms. How I see it - good, I'm eating vegies almost everyday now
  
• Complete assignments within time, getting 4.0 - AHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! How I see it - bad, bad , bad!!!
• Excercise at gym 3 times a week - Bullshit, but at least I jogged about 10 times until... February? How I see it - bad
• Be polite - I think my mom has instilled into me the basics (saying thank you, greet people, open doors to others, giving away my seat to old people). And I'm pretty convinced I've cut my sarcasm out into half (haha). I rarely encounter any animals nowadays. HISI - good
• Overall for new year's resolution - Quite balanced, but it tilts towards bad more, thanks to the assignments part. BAD

• Masterminded a charity drive to help the Palestinians. As president of ACELS, and having a paltry army of active members of 5 (then), though last minute, we managed to collect about RM300 in less than 3 hours! Good PR excercise, and for a good cause. How I see it - good

• In January I knew that I'll become 21 in two months time. So I thought I was young. Not until I rode a mechanical superquick merry-go-round (substitute the horsies with spaceships) at a fun fare in Arau and went neuseatic(sp?) and had to return to campus with the aid from a police officer on duty (he initially thought I was drunk) at his conviniently placed pondok polis, just next to the fun fare, with many fun fare goers fixing their eyes at my "drunkenness". Masjid buddies Amin and Anwar returned to campus wayyy later. How I see it - bad, I just posed myself as a drunkard to the Arau public.
  

• Kaka left Milan for Madrid - Initially - like any other fans - I was opposed to this move. But in the end its not so bad afterall. Especially having watched them beat Real at the Bernebeu(sp?) 3-2 was a footballing justice. How I see it - good

• Organised different activities for ACELS, and succeeding in each one of them. - Scrabble, KL trip (though met a few bitches), sketch competitions, charity drive, all were good. I'm impressed myself! HISI - good

• Shaalini, Michael Jackson, Yasmin Ahmad, some prominent Malaysian academic, Keith Floyd, several Hollywood celebrities and other famous people who I can't recall at the moment died this year. HISI - its always not good when it comes to death.

• Swine flu, and the UiTM swine flu break - I think in general, Malaysia is not affected that bad. And the swine flu break was rather timely. HISI - good

• McCurry 1-0 McDonalds - In the spirit of Malaysia boleh!, we beat the hell out of the greedy Americans. And I read in FHM not long ago, that this case is famous worldwide! For a moment, amidst the tiring political climate that have blanketed Malaysia since the Bodohwi era, I feel proud to be a Malaysian. HISI - good

• I changed the blog appearance - Its long overdued, but worth it. HISI - good

• The UiTM Perlis library internet is fucking slow - I'm impressed that we managed to get an ISO award for the library. But then again, even Malaysia's fastest internet provider is a joke to compare with other countries. I remember that because of the poor internet speed, investors from Australia opted to pull out their millions of dollars of investment into our country. HISI - bad for the economy. bad for fb junkies.
  

• I created a twitter account - I don't know how to use it. People say its fun. But I'm still in the dark at this one. Perhaps I've just wasted 1 hour of my life creating a twitter account. I hope I find it useful in the future. HISI - bad

• Becoming an emcee at Arau Open Debating Championship 2009 - The organising team was great. We did the impossibles! And for the first few weeks after then I was genuinely missing those people. HISI - good

• Still in the "range" - Academically, the CGPA went down like a squirrel being shot by a BB gun. But still, I defied all odds. Cramming everything during exam weeks still works for me. Though this year's results have been taking way too many of my pointers. Especially the most recent one. I think I will get kicked in the balls by myself from part 3, if ever time travel is made possible. HISI - bad, efforts done during the first 3 sems wasted.

• Twilight - Girls and gaylords have been crazy about a certain Rob Pat. But now it seems the power shift has tilted a bit towards the Jacob camp. But really, the Maldives are getting drowned and its getting ever hotter outside. Some shitty novels shouldn't be screened, but its Hollywood stuff and some hot guys act in it. And now more trees will be killed for more lousy novels such as this (and for the movie promos and posters). Those groupies should support against global warming. HISI - bad

• Scored a band 8 for my IELTS - Woh, giler ah! HISI - good

• Bought an awesome phone - And some asshole stole it. HISI - bad, and I'm gonna kill the thief. Twice!
  

• Had a solo trip to Langkawi - I learned that without your parents around, you can actually do many things like walking at the beach till 3am sipping a hot and refreshing cup of teh-o', after introducing some hot foreign chicks in a 2-piece bikinis to nasi paprik (which they all love) and some Halloween partying. And I went to a spa for a Thai massage (RM70 well spent, and its the first time having a proper massage). All this during the exam week! Overall, it tastes like freedom. HISI -goooooddd

• Smoked cigars - I think it's like fried fish. Some people like it, some people hate it. I don't have anything against them, the health ministry said it kills - but the air is polluted enough anyway - but I still can't get the hang out of it. Even after almost a box of it. It's overrated, but its a useful ice-breaking tool. HISI - good for experience

• Arrested by pak guards - UiTM Perlis pak guards are a bunch of assholes. Especially the head of the pak guards. They're so uptight, act as if they're the most proper, well mannered people. Trivial matters such as having (tolerable) long hair is seen as a crime in their eyes. They should die a slow death. HISI - good. At least I realise who this bunch are.

• Paid a simple visit to my old house in Georgetown - Its occupied so I can't get in. But at least I know that the house is pink and gay. And they have installed gates! HISI - is of sentimental value. good.
  

• Had the worst ever fever I could remember - I tought it was swine flu. It was not. I was left limping on the bed unable to turn my body sideways due to a chronic cough disease stemming from Indonesia's casual attitude towards Malaysian air space - haze. And I missed the grad year dinner. HISI - bad

• I met Man Kidal - the Axe Man! - good
  

• World economic recession - Retrenchment towards 100k Malaysians is a very very huge number. Price of food still high though didn't escalate like during Bodohwi's management. There's a slight deflation, though nothing significant. Investors who bought equities while the KLCI was 600 should be eating lobsters for snack by now. How I see it - bad. I didn't invest in equities.

• Had casual relationships - With a few girls. Though not serious but the dates at least gave me other things to do other than facebooking fiercely like a woman possessed. How I see it - good

• Broke my dad's car side mirror - A red lorry did it dad. A RED lorry! How I see it - bad

• Malaysia bought an F1 team - Unlike last year's (or last last year's) Malaysian government publicity stunt in sending a space tourist (and half a billion ringgit) to... outer space, though the 1Malaysia racing team have caused a almost similar stir in our country as to why the tax payers money are used on something useless instead of towards the welfare of the populace, somehow I see it as an exciting investment. If we can get a few points that is. HISI - bad. They should use the money as scholarships to desperate deserving young Malaysians (please lar JPA)

• Offered a degree in finance. At Arau campus. HISI - bad because I need a breath of fresh air. Its getting stale in there.

• Blogged at least one topic per month. Not a bad attempt to prolong the usefullness of this blog. And somehow I feel accomplished. HISI - good
  

Overall - Quantitatively, good scored a 17, beating bad by 1 point. So its good 17-16 bad. But given the tight score, and the varying degrees of good and bad (which is another quantitative matter) and several other details that I refrain from putting or simply failed to recall at the moment, I shall brand this year, a pretty good year.


p/s : Just bought a cheap RM93 Nokia1202. Text me people. And I love Kim Tae-Hee.

Precious Illusions

So lately I've been listening to some old tunes i hear from schooldays. Songs from artists such as radiohead, alanis morissette, bjork and matchbox twenty keeps on playing in my wmp. In fact, i had just rediscovered my love for japanese music and in particular the band called the Brilliant Green and not to forget their oh so sexy frontlady tomoko kawase!!!

ngahahaha

That got me thinking though. Whenever examination time approaches i always tend to resort to some music and this time it makes me want to rekindle my schooldays...


... it has been almost 4 years now

When You Think You're Out of Things To Do

... the holidays can be painfully long to some people.
Especially when they have nothing better to do.

So when you grow tired of sitting in front of the pc, out of books that can inspire you to read, cant find the mood to listen to records, have nowhere left to visit, losing (and eventually got you fired and left you bereft in confidence to keep on playing) in fm08, watched the same shows on repeat on tv, out of cash to hit the town with friends, found out that your laptop is short of specs to install the long awaited fm09 and having a terrible unerasable mentality of "excercising can kill you, not excercising can kill you, i choose not to excercise", you can simply grow tired of holidays.

What the hell am i talking...
i found the dullest blog in the world and there's a new show on kbs,
and im getting used to facebook now.
sputnikmusic has been a rich source of good music to dig in to
and goal.com has now started a forum!
so, i have a lot of things to do now.
and when you think you're out of things to do, it is best to search for records of things that you always wanted to do- new year's resolution or in my case, the post before this one-

I'm still in holiday mood. dont worry!

on another note, the finals result will come out on the 17th.
i believe it'll be released earlier like the previous 3.
i have a bad feeling things won't go right...

The Year That Was 2007

Christmas has just passed (raya haji passed 3 days earlier) and in 3 days time i'm all in for a new year! So in between xmas and new year's day, some of us might take this time to reflect the year that is about to go down as another year that doesn't just makes up our age, but the nostalgia - bitter and sweet - that comes together with it.

With the help from my previous posts, i managed to recapture the moments that define the year 2007 for me. (though not all due to the time constrains and having to multiple tasks a few programs over here)

1 - I started the year with a feeling so low that i even considered different ways of suicide sometimes (drinking poison, jumping off from a building, poison myself AND jumping off from a building. im not creative man). i was a bit uncertain about quiting matrix and got my arse in to UiTM. its an unnecessary "facelift". but somehow the fresh feeling when i got there (albeit it took me about a month to adjust to the surroundings) got me thinking that i might well have made the right choice. whatmore, if i did continue in matrix, the chance for me to study abroad is absolute zero. and the fact that there is a 50-50 chance that if i am to score a killer cgpa i might well stand a chance to go the US got me even thrilled. in some odd ways, i am still in contact with my matrix friends and not all are rosy over there. some have gone to maktab perguruan to become teachers and others went to universities and got themselves weird and predictably low prospect courses. thats not to say that there isn't anyone getting that killer courses, instead there are lots of them as well. but judging for myself on how far i could go, the killer courses is a far far stretch from reality. good thing i moved out. and economics seems to fit well into my system! oh, and as of now, i managed a cgpa of 3.94!

2 - 2007 saw me doing weird stuffs. people do weird things for survival you know and in my case, the year 2007 saw me donating blood, riding the train home and back to campus and played in a band (brass band, not rock band). these are simply too weird, i can't even imagine doing those stuff before i got there. but i glad i did. : )

bukti derma darah!

3 - I had my first real girlfriend.

parts and parcels of growing up i guess. the date, texting till dusk, bday gifts, etc are fun. the ditching part too. xD

4 - Discovered great music.

I used to only listen to alternative rock, prog rock and any other mainstream type of rock music. not anymore, since i got serious with sputnikmusic, i discovered a whole new spectrum of wonderful music. suddenly bands and artists like beirut, belle and sebastian, white shoes and the couples company, and even techno music and ambients and trip hop (moby, zero 7, esthero, mandalay, mogwai, etc.). i guess im a bit mature in my taste. heh! and yeah, im now totally into indonesain indie ; ) . and im no more using p2ps.

white shoes and the couples company

5 - Got a job.

Not the sales promoter thing (the store) that i got myself tortured with 2 years ago, but instead a more respective job but unfortunately with little pay to compare with the promoter job. i was (and still am) a proof reader for the degree student's public speaking drafts thing. eventhough i find myself unqualified fully for this job but the idea of charging rm15 per script and finally people look forward to me really got me going. heh.

6 - Talked to a hobo.

7 - Watched wayang kulit live!

8 - I checked in into a hotel and stayed there for one night, ALONE. complete with room service!

Simply because i was dead bored waiting for the next finals paper and the gap was too long. watched a movie at night for the first time.

9 - Steve Irwin died from a stingray shot.

10 - Bennazer Bhutto died after being shot AND bombed by a suicide bomber. (its breaking news man, fresh from tv!)

11 - AC Milan are the european and world club champions.

But their performance in domestic competitions is horrible.

12 - England failed to qualify for EURO 08.

Football powerhouse konon. that is like a joke that sits pretty well along with some ali G's interviews and the simpsons movie. and that leads to...

13 - Watched the Blackadder, Ali G, and Weeds.

Those things up there are highly recommended. especially blackadder 3 and blackadder goes fourth. oh, and musn't forget blackadder's back and forth!

blackadder goes fourth.

14 - My father is now officially a pensioner (01 July 07).

15 - I think i've become less sarcastic this year. and my english is getting worse!

Well i guess that's all that made my 2007. hopefully next year will be better.

Season's greetings!